I am 33 today!!! How can this be!??! For some reason, I still feel young… because I am young right?! I am feeling lately like my absolute best days lie ahead. Looking back on the past year it almost feels like a blur. SO much has happened. Good and hard but mostly good and beautiful. I don’t have a ton of reflections to share with you today, but I do have one big take away….Love yourself.
I have spent a good part of my life comparing myself to others and striving for unattainable goals. Like they say, the grass always looks greener on the other side. My comparison was mostly physical in nature. “My nose is too wide, my cheeks are too chubby, my butt is too big, I am too thick.” The list goes on. I would see photos of myself in my Time Hop where I was smaller, younger and so on and recall thinking the same exact things then. This led me to realize that an outward focus becomes futile and if you don’t address your patterns of thinking and begin to find your worth, you will never be happy with yourself.
My heart and mind really shifted this year. A HUGE part of helping me love myself has always been Ben. He has been constant in affirming the truth over my life over and over again. I know that I have exhausted him with spewing out lies about myself but he has never given up on me or failed to remind me of the truth. I can now say that I truly love myself and all that God has made me. We have been together for 10 years so this has been a long process of me getting here.Don’t get me wrong, I will never stop aspiring to be a better version of myself in every aspect of life, but this is a journey and I am choosing to love myself along the way. I talk about this a lot but a key to overcoming and to self-love for me was walking through the root of why I didn’t love myself… where did that come from? Once Ben and I figured that out it was easier to navigate my way to freedom.
Loving yourself is more than loving what you look like. It is loving who you are completely. I can assure you that as you begin to focus on the beautiful things that you are instead of the things that you are not, you will love yourself more and more. I am learning that the key is also keeping it as positive as possible. When your mind takes a negative turn, find a friend, a spouse or a family member to talk to. Tell them what you are thinking and why and then allow them to speak life over you and remind you of who you are.
Loving yourself is a choice, it can be hard for some but it is possible and it is the way God has intended for us to live…That is my take away as I enter my 33d year! Hoping this year will be the best year yet!! Thank you as always for reading!! Much love to you all!! XO