My name is Claudia Gomez, a 29 yr. old mama of 3(which most people don’t believe since my oldest is 11) now the voice behind IG Blog Claudia’s Glass House and I also help run a Video Production Company with my husband. I could not have been more excited when Ruthie asked me to join this series but I also had to pause for a sec when I read what the series was about. I feel like God has some sense of humor cause here I am about to talk about something I have struggled with for YEARS!!
When I say struggled I really mean I STRUGGLED. How much you may ask? Well by the time I was in my early 20s I had pretty much settled on the thought that I was set out to be just a mom to my kiddos, a supporter to an incredible talented do it all husband, (can you tell I was jealous of him at one point) have a job I was OK at and basically I would be the one sitting on the side lines watching everyone else be amazing!
I know I can’t be the only one that for years felt unfulfilled, as if something were missing. Like I had something inside of me, something I needed to be doing, something that just wanted to burst at the seams and just flow right out of me. Though because I knew I didn’t have my “life” together, FEARS AND LIES pushed me to suppress any dream and any hope of dreaming.
Do you know how many times I woke up and saw someone else, at times even friends doing something I wanted to do and living out those things I had in my heart. It ate me up inside every time, but even worse was knowing I wasn’t even making an effort. I even convinced myself at one point that if I was meant to do something great that it would just sort of happen and God would just have it fall on my lap. Until one day those desires in me became agonizing frustrations that did not let me live. It’s as if I could no longer stand in my own way but my mind still trapped in the confusion of where to start or better yet, “How the heck was I going to do this”?
See I had not seen many successful things in my life honestly. No successful marriage or business, I didn’t come from a home that was filled with much aspiration. Frankly, it was the opposite. I grew up in a home with a single mother who had a broken spirit, who had very little self worth and got stuck in life very early on. Had many dreams but couldn’t obtain the strength to accomplish them and sadly passed a lot of her ways of thinking onto me.
Fast forward, I had to come to terms with the fact that God had truly deposited something in me. Something that He wanted specifically me to live out. I had to accept that I was WORTH having a dream and it was ok to embrace that. When I finally understood that my feelings of agony were from me suppressing what God had given me, it changed me. It unleashed a confidence and trust in God like never before. I no longer needed to figure it all out, I just needed to start. Just like that I did, and it’s the reason why I am even here writing and sharing this with you today!
God tells us in Jeremiah 29:11 “For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future”. What does this mean? It means that those dreams, those urging desires to open your own business, start a blog, write a
Book, have been planted in you with a reason but even better, it is backed up by God for not just you’re good but all those around you. Thank you Jesus!
Let me tell you that no one ever got anywhere in life without action, so that dream you have just needs a place to start.
You may say “Claudia, but I’m a mess, so imperfect” or “I’m afraid of failing, I can’t do this”. I can totally 100% get that! No seriously I can, I became a mom at 18, had some serious daddy issues, was emotionally unstable for most of 20s, finances all over the place. I found every excuse and believed every lie that told me not trying was better than failing. But here are a few things to think about:
You serve the God who does the impossible
Failing is how we learn, so why be afraid
No one ever did anything great by staying in their comfort zone
Lastly, we don’t need to be perfect to start
My point with all of this is that it is ok to dream big with God. To dream in an untraditional and unexplainable way. We were meant to do that, to break barriers and standards for Jesus and this looks differently for you and for me. We love to limit God in ourselves but yet always see his greatness in the person next to us. That greatness is in you and me.
Dig deep in your heart and find what God has deposited in you and start. If you already know or maybe are in that same place I was, where it didn’t let you rest and you can almost physically see yourself already walking in it then congrats that’s God at your door confirming He wants to begin.
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I love everything about Claudia’s story and message!! SO relatable and encouraging!! It does NOT matter where you have been, what you have done, how unworthy you feel, with God anything is possible, and it is NEVER too late to dream a new dream!! In case you missed last week’s Dare to Dream feature by Nakeia, you can check it out here. Thank you all for being a part of this series! I hope you are being inspired as much as I am!